I'm not sure

Things seem to change on a daily basis these days.  One day you think you have life somewhat figured out for yourself and the next you are sitting clueless trying to figure out what you are doing tomorrow.  Right now my life seems full of I’m not sure.

Two weeks ago I was planning to move to Tanzania the beginning of 2012 to work with Africa Inland Mission and the Kuira people.  Well things have changed and because of things happening with the couple that were supposed to lead my team in Tanzania, Africa Inland Mission has canceled the trip I was going to go on.  I was in complete shock… what do you mean they canceled the team I was going with!  What am I supposed to do now? Well Africa Inland Mission gave me a few other options of different locations to go to and while I have been researching them and praying about them I just don’t know if that is where God is calling me.  I don’t want to join another team going somewhere else just because they have an opening, to me it feels like I am taking God out of the equation that way.

So right now I am seeking God waiting for His perfect timing in letting me know what I might be doing in the future. I still feel called to missions and will continue to pursue different opportunities.   I moved to Knoxville Tennessee this past weekend, which is exciting and very scary.  I am officially out on my own, not under the wings of my parents and paying for things myself…YIKES!  I am living with a friend from school Katie, in a cute little two-bedroom apartment right near downtown.  I am close to Johnson Bible College, which means I get to hang out with all my friends again from school, and close to University of Tennessee, which means my best friend, Amanda is only a short drive away.   I transferred from the bakery at Sam’s Club in Johnson City to one here in Knoxville and I am very thankful that the Lord provided me with a job here so easily.   I am also going to be volunteering at the homeless shelter here again.  I went once a week while going to school here in Knoxville and I have really missed it while living at home.   I am excited to get involved in a church here and have community around me to help me grow in my faith and my walk with the Lord.   

Even as I have lots of questions right now I keep reminding myself of the part of Matthew 28:20 where God tells us He is with us always.  Whether I am in Africa or Knoxville, Tennessee God is right by my side and He will always be with me through all that I do and all the questions I may have.

 “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:19-20